This morning, I was greeted by an e-mail written by my fourteen-year-old daughter. I liked it so much that I decided—with her permission, of course—to post it below. Take a quick look, and you’ll see why I’m so proud of her—and all my kids!
Have you ever felt worthless, like you don’t belong in this world and the world would be a better place without you? Well I have felt that way sometimes. I have what’s known as Aspergers Syndrome, another form of autism. I’ve always felt left out, like I’m not good enough, even though I know that’s not true.
I used to go to a private school in Florida for kids just like me until my family moved to Maryland. Now I go to a public school with a lot of kids who aren’t like me. Not only that, but I’m now with a group of friends who are all atheists, and I’m the only religious person in that group, so I really feel like I stick out. And that can make me feel bad about myself again.
I’m not saying that my disorder is a bad thing; no, it makes me special. I have the right to live no matter how bad I feel sometimes. Aspergers is just one of my many special qualities and you can’t take that away from me! I will live the rest of my life with this disorder, but as of now, me being a teenage girl, I’m young and insecure, I’m on a wire balancing my dreams, hoping ends will meet their means, but I feel alone, uninspired.
I might like things that others don’t, for example Pokemon, Anime, Creepypasta, and FNaF. I do sometimes feel worthless and left out. Sometimes I wonder why I’m even alive. But am I going to give up? NO! I will stick with myself. I will surpass all of my fears, difficulties, insecurities, and faults! Even when I go into high school next year, I will walk through those doors with confidence, and if I don’t then shame on me!
I need to look at the positive side of life. My past might haunt me, and my brothers might make fun of me, but I am a YouTuber, a DeviantArtist, an honor roll student, and a good friend. I would help anyone I know through problems that they are having, and if I can’t, then I would tell them that everything is okay and help them back up.
I might be very different from everyone else, but just know one thing. If you feel worthless, look inside of yourself and see how much you matter to God. So please look at life in a good way and try to ignore the faults of humanity. Have confidence, be yourself, and if anyone tells you otherwise, ignore them and follow your own path! You are you, and there is no one like you!
Hey I am a 12 year old kid. I really liked-loved-your daughters post. Sometimes I feel that way, too. My older brother has Aspergers, too, and my younger brother has full-blown Autism. I love writing and drawing, but sometimes I get so afraid of crticism. The best thing that anyone can do is keep their heads up. I loved how this post talked about that. I am a Roman Catholic, and I try to take it seriously in my life and writing. –Kid Who Loves This Post (Maryann)
Thanks, Maryann! I’ll be sure to share your words with my daughter. Blessings on you and your awesome family!